Ten Years Gone

Posted: October 11, 2010 in Uncategorized

I’m tired of playing games.  I’ve been having this debate for ten years.  Yeah, but… yeah, but…what about…?  What if…? You either want this or you don’t.  See the value or you don’t.  It’s either worth confronting your fears or it’s not.  So which is it?  Are you going to temper the madman inside you who’s always smiling and rattling the cage of your mind?  The one pacing back and forth waiting for his time to come?  Are you going to continue maintaining this incredibly costly prison you’ve got him locked up in?

So you’re afraid.  So what’s new?  You’ve always been afraid of the things that matter.  The things that bring real change.

But what if I’m crazy?  What if I’m on the path to my own destruction?

Well, this is how I see it:  You know what’s behind you.  It’s slavery and death.  There’s no question about that.  You don’t know what’s in front of you.  Make a goddamn choice.

So you wrote some books.  So what?  Are you living it?  Beautiful moments of clarity now buried beneath a fearful mind.  We both know what has to be done.  That psychotic bastard in there, he’s got to get out and start running things.  This little bitch that’s in control right now just isn’t working out.  It’s time for a revolution.

Do you know why this is a lie? Deferring payments.  A new 0% interest credit card.  Because it’s  preventing you from experiencing the full wrath and torment of your slavery.  It’s keeping you comfortable in this cage.  You know it’s a cage.  Are you trying to not know it’s a cage?  Are you trying to be comfortable in the cage?  It’s a cage!  It’s supposed to feel like shit!  This pain is far more real than the numbness your searching for.  It’s telling you the truth.  You’re in a cage!  So let it get uncomfortable.  Let it hurt.  At some point you’ll finally say No more.  I’m walking away, even if it kills me.  I’d rather be dead than live this way.

It’s just a matter of time.  We both know it.  The seed has been planted.   There’s no killing it now.  This going to be birthed and it’s going to take over your whole world.  It’s not the freedom and separation from others that’s going to drive you mad, it’s the trying to stop it from happening.  This is going to happen.  we both know it.  It’s just a matter of time.

Advertisements

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s